Zander: It's no problem. It's important that people understand what is really going on. So, fire away, ma’am. (There is that crooked smile that Liv is always going on about...Holy hell, she wasn't kidding. It really is disarming.)
Me: One fan would like to know, what is your most treasured possession?
Zander: You know, if you had asked me that question a few days ago I would have said my bike—well, my dad’s bike, hands-down, but after everything that’s happened? It all just seems so trivial now, you know? (He laughs, but it sounds deflated and his smile doesn’t quite reach those copper eyes)
Me: How do you mean?
Zander: Thing is, when all you have left in this world is the clothes on your back and your memories, possessions don’t really mean a whole lot anymore. The only thing I have that means anything to me is little more than a useless scrap of metal. Still, it’s all I have left of my dad and Liv damn near got herself killed trying to get it for me. I can never repay her for that.
Me: Speaking of Liv, that brings me to our next fan question. The two of you seem like you have a real connection. Do you feel as though Icarus is responsible for that or is there more to it?
Zander: Wow, you don’t shy away from the hard ones do you? (laughs and runs his fingers through his hair) Yeah, we definitely have a connection but it’s kind of hard to explain. I mean, she’s probably the most stubborn and strong-willed girl I have ever met in my life, but…Liv is special and I don’t just mean her abilities, you know? She has this sort of reluctant strength, if that makes sense. And by the way, my faith in her and our connection, as you put it, has absolutely nothing to do with Icarus. Liv has always been a survivor—even before all this. I wish she could see what the rest of us see, you know?
Me: No, I totally get it. (swoon) Where was I…(deep breath) Oh, right. Okay, so our next fan question is: What is your biggest regret?
Zander: My biggest regret? I, umm…you know what? I don’t think there is room for regret in this world anymore. Life is just too short and there are no guarantees that there will even be a tomorrow. I think that rather than looking back with regret, I am choosing to look forward with hope. Salvation is out there and we are going to find it.
Me: Wow. I have to tell you Zander, that’s insanely optimistic given what you’ve all been through since Solar Storm Icarus hit. You've lost so much, and seen so may terrible things. Hell, if I were in your shoes, I'd be scared out of my mind. How do you stay so positive and hopeful when the world is quite literally crashing down around you…when everything feels so dark?
Zander: (He laughs softly and shakes his head. His dark hair falls into his eyes as they meet mine)
The dark is nothing to be afraid of, ma’am. Even the brightest star in the sky needs a little bit of that darkness in order to shine.